Hi guys,
I just started this blog a few minutes ago so here i am writing my first official post.
What happened today? Well, NOTHING happened. I just spent entire day at home. Lurking from blog to blog, from site to site....online. Never been a fan of exercise or work out thus all of the slumbering is making sense.
Here goes the deep parts; I believe no one is into blog anymore. so, I've been feeling like its ok to splash my secrets here. First of all, about myself. Trust me, i'm not a self obsessed person but i like to start with myself just because its in order. i love everything that is in order =) . I had spent some time pondering about myself, a lot of time actually. i realized that i am no longer me. who is 'me'? 'Me' is a person named Syahirah but she only exist until 2010. that was the time before i went to Shah Alam. In early 2011, i was still me. but after that, i kind of lost. to what? i dont know. maybe to so called civilisation or 'permodenan'. thruthfully, i am ashamed of myself now. lets just call this new identity as 'sya'. who is 'sya'? what makes 'sya' so different to 'me'? EVERYTHING! Everything is different.
i can't deny that in some aspects 'sya' is a lot better than 'me'. however, calculating all factors i like 'me' better. 'Sya' is a person that has all forgotten where she comes from. 'sya ' is a rude person. 'sya' is a person who thinks highly of herself. 'sya' is cocky. 'sya' is a girl that has less dignity compared to 'me'. the most important thing is I am disgusted with 'sya'.
